I feel so stress now!!It should be a happy and excited news when I heard that I am getting marry next year!!But y I am not happy at all ?? I wan a man that willing getting marry with me not by getting force by parents ...I don't need a man that just wanna be responsible to my life ,take care of me !!!I am not a child ,I just wanna a true love life!!!i don't wanna live in a marriage life that does not have love!!!!Do u guys understand??? I wan my own life,don't force me please!!!!Leave me alone !!!!

Today I feel better!!He company me to sleep the whole night and I feel so warm!!! I can feel that I really need him in my life to make my life prefect !!!He is so charming and u can't control yourself not to look at him!!!I really hope that he will always company me like yesterday!!! I know that I can't love anyone else and only him I will love!!! Will he love me like how I love him???( will never know) 

19/5/2016 Today i feel so tired and not in a good mood!!i don't know how to describe my feeling now ,everything I do or everything people do it make me feel uncomfortable !!I always wish that he can give me a great smile to begin my new day but he did not today!!He look very tired and stress!!Maybe because of business problem ,he look very down!!! Sometime I really wish that I can help him !! I did not ask for more , my wish just that I can see him everyday and smile to me once he realizes that I watching him..😊